HI

Lyricist (excuse my lack of mindblowing titles)

Ahaha new story...blop 

"The reason is, Lyra is ambitious, and me...I'm not, and that's why my mom hates me."

It made me think of Lyra and our lunch date later.  "I'm pretty sure she doesn't hate you." 

"You don't know that./You don't get it.  I'm like my dad.  She hates my dad, because he wanted me--us to live a peaceful/ordinary life, and she disagreed."

"...What happened then?"  I was dreaming of sushi, nearly salivating.

"Well, they're divorced now.  I visit him every once in a while, but my mom doesn't like it.  It makes her feel like she's admitting defeat every time I want to see him and not her.

She wanted to be famous, Dean, and I ruined it.  But now she has Lyra, and she will never stop pushing her.  I-I don't know what to do..."

She sobbed quietly, her shoulders shaking.  What was I supposed to do?  I knew Lyra would laugh it off in a moment, but Cara was different.  I reached out tentatively and placed my hands on her shoulders.

She stiffened, her sobs stopping, and I flushed, quickly pulling back.  She-she's so small, so...fragile.  I couldn't name the emotion that came over me.  I wanted to protect her, to never let her cry again, to--

I shook my head, trying to clear away those thoughts.  Talent agent.  That's what I am.  Talent agents don't have time for those thoughts.  I tried to think of Lyra, and how she was the one I should give my attention to.  Build your way to the top, Uncle had said.

It was silent.  When I looked up, Cara was furrowing her eyebrows, something she always did when she was worried.  -----And suddenly I realized that, somehow along the way, I had shifted to trying to get to know her, not to recruit her.  And I liked it that way.

All thoughts of Lyra immediately vanished from my head.  I  reached out and pulled Cara into my/an embrace.  "I will never let anyone hurt you again."

Oh, Dean, you are a cruel, twisted child.  I just made you up today but you already have too much background it scares me.

Lolololololololol~  I've actually been singing that as a song...LOL

I just keep reading this and giggling.  Excuse me.

I don't get it...why is it that, when I'm in a bad mood, I made cheesy star person animations, watch Disney movies, sing horrible karaoke, and let Disney songs play continuously through my head?

And if you want to say something like "hah" or "oh, I can't help it, I'm just laughing at you" don't.  I'll just get into a worse mood.  Then I'll make a new blogger so I can vent my frustrations in peace.  Hmmph.  Really, Az.

No more commentary is necessary.  Not even in real life.  Or I will continue my bad mood.  For a long time.

And I hate how this post seems comedic to me.  Ugh...

I can hear a song that sounds like madagascar's "I like to move it"...ugh...?

Ugh...

How about this.  Just don't comment.  Then there will be no chance for a consequence.

Pffffffft

Reads old post that I wrote when I was in a bad mood.  Immediately bursts out laughing.

I'm sorry self, but...I can't help but laugh at everything I've written...

I am such a twisted person it's ridiculous.

I JUST LEARNED THIS A MINUTE AGO WHEN I DROPPED MY IPAD AFTER TYPING A POST AND WELL IF YOU SHAKE YOUR IPAD IT BRINGS UP THE OPTION TO "UNDO TYPE" LOOK

>>>EDITEDEDITEDYAHHH<<<Christmas Wish List~

FREAKING DISAPPEARED

*groans in frustration*

Seriously blogger...

So now I'll type it really fast.

http://namie.storenvy.com/products/633638-phantasmagoria (but I will murder if someone buys this by themself) (and will die if received)

http://www.freewebstore.org/inmastore/Karneval_Fanbook__Beautiful_Thing/p1386284_10222037.aspx (I like the series, artist, and ship.  Don't judge.  I will admit, if I receive this I will hide it in a corner of my room.  Oh and I like the magnet too so adorbs<3)

Animal crossing: wild world (for Nintendo DS.  Cuz.  No I really don't know)

Hayao miyazaki Studio ghibli films

A foldable wallet.  Preferably one relating to something anime.  Or something like that.  Asian.  Nothing boring.

One candy corn.  Just one.  Well, maybe more, but I really only wanna try one...

RANDOMNESS

And I forgot.  Oh my.

This used to be on here (hence "edited") but is no longer:  http://koyamori.storenvy.com/collections/275873-book/products/3074679-places-art-book

Tumblr move

Yeah, so I think I will move to tumblr.  Except...this is proving to be a rocky move...more like, I'm back to square one with the "I have no idea how to use this newfangled technology!!  Why are there so many buttons??"  I guess you can call it the same as my sense of direction...I get lost at school and on social networking sites...

It feels really weird when you sit in one position for too long and suddenly stand up, and you run for the phone, but your right leg feels like it's rotating in circles...

Listen to Kyle Landry!!  Ahhh!!  He's so good!!  (devoted fan girl)  He makes really good arrangement of songs on the piano (so far, I've watched "crossing field" from SAO, "a whole new world" from Aladdin, and howls moving castle theme song "merry go round of life").  The thing is, once you listen to one of his arrangements, you just can't like any others, so I'm wondering if this is really a good thing to be recommending...yeah, he doesn't actually write his arrangements down.  He just finds the original sheet music and improvises.  And it's so good!!  But that means someone else has to transcribe it for him...sigh...

I really, REALLY want to play "crossing field" and "the merry go round of life".  Two songs from two of my absolute favorite anime.  But no one has transcribed it!!  Wahhhh!!  So I'm gonna play "a whole new world".  It's really cool how he can make such simple Disney songs into something so intricate.  He turns something that would seem like a song for a second grader to play into a masterpiece.

Lala lala, ladida, lalaluwa, lala, lala!!

My geometry teacher randomly goes "lalala" in the middle of class.

Just wanted to write something totally random.

Celebrity Bachelorette

This is actually quite fun to write, mostly because it's really just me ranting in the form of a story...

I'm a prodigy.  I made my debut at 7, and went head first into the celebrity world.  I fell in --and out of-- love.  Tragic story, undoubtedly one that will delight my grand kids when I'm an old granny knitting by the fireplace.  But that's a different story.  This story is about me.  And my frustrations.  Right.  Now.

Because I've just been selected for the newest round of "Bachelorette".

----

So, my manager decided it was high time for me to get a boyfriend.  Seventeen and single just doesn't have that certain ring to it, he said.  I disagree.  They both start with "s", don't they?  It sounds much better than "seventeen and trapped" or "seventeen and wanting to die".  Especially after that incident.

Of course, the poor celebrity never has a say in such matters, and now I'm the first Bachelorette who wholeheartedly is trying her best--to not get a boyfriend.

It's a nice show, really.  I just love watching those knights in shining armor battling it out for the hand of the stricken maiden.  Knights in shining armor?  For me?  Bah, humbug, I'd rather find myself a warty toad prince than have a ton of celeb heart throbs--because that's definitely what they'll be, I'm a prodigy, remember?--trying for my hand.

Tinkerbell and the Great Fairy Rescue

Yeah, so I watched another Disney fairy movie.  I was going to watch ponyo, but I didn't want to spend my time finding something that would work on my iPad.

What I don't understand though, is...wait, I'll just explain a bit first...

1.  fairies can't fly when their wings are wet because they are too heavy

2.  Each day, each fairy is given ONE cup of pixie dust.

3.  Fairies can make humans fly by putting their pixie dust on them.

So, now that you know that, think of these:

4.  The amount of pixie dust required to make a human fly far exceeds that "one cup a day" that the fairies get.

5.  Humans are a lot heavier than fairies, even when the fairy's wings are wet.

So, why is it that fairies are perfectly capable of expelling enough pixie dust to make a much heavier human fly, when they don't have enough to make themselves fly when their wings are wet??

Just wondering...

Also, did you know, the voice actress for Tinkerbell is the same as the one for Katara in Avatar:  The Last Airbended?  (Mae Whitman)

Also, think of this, though it may not apply as much, since this is from the books, which sparked from the Peter pan play someone came up with:  (I don't think the play mentions pixie hollow at all, though the Disney fairies books mention Peter pan often)

Tink was first introduced with Peter Pan in Neverland.  (I don't think she's actually originally a tinker?  I think she may be named Tinkerbell because she "tinks" when she talks)  According to the DF (Disney fairies books) though, fairies require pixie dust every day (they can't just dump a million cups on themselves and expect it to last forever).  So how does Tink have enough pixie dust to make the lost boys fly every day?  Of course, since the play came before the DF, this doesn't really apply...

Another thing:  the Pixie Dust Tree (I think it may have another name...) in the movies makes the pixie dust, but according to the DF, pixie dust is from the ground up molted feathers of Mother Dove.  Just a thought...

I'm pretty sure that some of the fairies were changed for the movie, probably to not be racist.  First off, I don't think Iridessa even exists in the books (she African).  I don't think clank and bobble exist either, but I think they're just fun characters the Disney staff added in.  Also, in the movies, Silvermist is obviously Asian.  In the books, however, she has blue eyes.  So yeah, she turned Asian?

If you look, then you'll see that the Disney fairies (in the movie) group has all the hair colors.  (Silvermist and iridessa are exceptions)

Tink-blonde

Fawn-brown

Rosetta-Red hair

Vidia-black

I'm calling them the "American" fairies.  I feel like I'm missing one...

Anyways, so the Disney fairies in the movies are all about equality.  Nice place.

If you can't tell, I loved the Disney fairies when I was a kid.  I still do...

After AP Testing!!

So, yeah, the ap hug test is over!!

And now I have no idea what to do with my life, so I decided to read fantasy books.  Im going to go through (what I consider) all the epic fantasy novels (until I get bored)!  So, right now I'm reading the legends of Drizzt, if you couldnt tell from my earlier post.  Then, I'll finish Tamora Pierce's books (there not anything famous, but I like them), and then lord of the rings!

So...I'm just gonna make a list of what I like:  (I can't remember all of them...)

Legends of Drizzt (this is actually a whole bunch of trilogies, but I don't want to name them all...the main character is a dark elf named Drizzt Do'Urden)

Tamora Pierce's books

Lord of the rings, the hobbit, and the salmarillon (is that how you spell it?)

Artemis fowl (the last book came out last year!!  Ahhh!!)

The moon & sun series by holly lisle is interesting, but I don't think it's finished...

There's this other series, I forgot the name, but the main character is called weasel or some animal that starts with W...some of the books are "crown of earth" and "shield of stars".  I liked them.  But I haven't read the whole series...don't know if it's complete or not...

I suppose I should read inkspell, etc (by Carnelia? Funke).  If you haven't read it, you should read "thief lord" by the same author.  It's good, though it's kinda depressing...

Percy Jackson, Harry potter

I know these aren't fantasy, but they fit into the category of books similar to fantasy (historical setting, kingdoms, etc):

Umm...I forgot the name, but it's about this girl named Cat? that lives in this theater.  I think the first book is called diamond of the theater?  Something like that...

I need to finish the Gallagher girls series, and I want to read heist society

This doesn't fit into either category, but I really like this book.  I don't like the sequels nearly as much, but it's still good.  It's called "My Side of the Mountain".  I don't like the ending, but then again, there wasn't really any other way for it to end...otherwise, the story would carry on forever...

Drizzt Do'Urden

 Translation of a page of the prequel, "Homeland":

Oh my, he has abnormal purple eyes that can see fine in light, and his sister looks at him and thinks 'oh, those eyes are HOT.  What if I could do IT with HIM when he's older?'.  And then moms like, uh-uh, he's your brother, don't even think of it.  And she thinks 'hey, you can't really be saying it, considering all those flings you've had with all the soldiers'.  And I'm like 'what the hell...'

The awkward day you learn about the reproductive system in biology, and the whole class is abnormally quiet as your teacher obviously steers clear of using the common names for certain terms.

I hate how I no longer have the ability to cry.

I don't have the time, first of all, since my world is now consumed in studying and school.  It's as if grades rule my life.  And they do.  To get a good job and succeed in this world, you need good grades, experience, good work, etc.  A few marks on a piece of paper hold too much weight on our lives.

I'm no longer the innocent, hurt by everything different little girl I used to be.  It's this world again, corrupting everyone and everything.  Hurting the environment.  Why do we have the right to destroy this planet?  In the end, we're all animals, we all rely on plants, we all live on Earth.  We have about as much right as the nonexistent cow chewing grass to ruin Earth.  Which is, to say, none.  And people these days, always caring about material things.  Money, clothes, electronics--all the things that make you look "cool".  If cool means destroying the earth and living in a superficial, man-made world, I don't want to be it.  And the social aspect.  People vie for power, and will do anything for it.  Why is it that humans can't live peacefully?  Do they really need to kill thousands just so they can be sitting at the top of a pile of bones?  Is that how people really want to live their lives?  And students at school.  "Damn, fuck, shit, crap, faggot, retard, bitch, bastard, whore"--anyone who chooses to use those words relentlessly constantly degrades my view of them.  They call people that?  Then they are those themselves.  And the violence.  Why do humans always resort to violence?  All of these rules to try to keep the peace--the golden rule, laws, morals taught--are useless.  The creators of them even know that.  If they didn't, why would they try creating them?  Those aren't there to stop violence, they're there to mitigate it.  And it's not working.  

I've actually always hated this world.  I'm the true pessimist, just with a bigger mask on than any other so-called pessimist that you can find.  It's not the world though, it's the people and what they've done.  How they superimpose whatever they want onto things not meant to be disturbed.  Want to know why I never really got started on art until the end of middle school?  Because I hated it.  Not hated it in the sense that I hated to draw.  I just hated the eventual outcome of that drawing and designing.  I once had the faint wanting to be an architect.  The reason that never really went anywhere was because that involved buildings.  Structures placed on cleared land, destroying the environment.  Of course, you would never know any of this if you met me.  Now, I love art, and if I'm without some form of it for more than week, I turn into a haunted zombie-like character.  Learning is an odd passion of mine, and I love electronics, and the magical digital world accessed through the technological gate.  My current dream for the future is to be an animator.  But underneath it all lies this disdain of the people around me who don't care about this world they live in.  Want to know part of the reason I'm such an introvert?  I hate how people around me act.  They seem to think that their main goal in life is to make themselves look pretty, to talk an excessive amount, and hate everything that others are doing to help them.  Whenever I hear someone say "I don't get why we have to take this class.  It's not like we're ever going to need this in the future." or "I hate this class.  It's so boring.", I imagine stabbing them.

And I feel useless.  Like nothing I do will ever change this world.  So I don't do anything.  I put on my hardened, trained mask and enjoy the benefits of this world, and hate parts that displease me, just like all the other people here.  So, in the end, I am one of the people I hate.

To assure those reading this, though, I don't hate my friends.  Why would I be friends with someone I hate?  Yeah, I do hate little bits of everyone in the group, but that's normal.  No one's perfect.  The people that I severely dislike are the people that don't care at all.  And you're not one of them.  And if you're just a random person, if you read this whole thing and agreed, then I like you.  Now see if any of those things applies to you.  Truthfully.  Then you're wonderful:D

So yes, you could say that I'm really a pessimistic environmentalist who really wants people to appreciate this world and those trying to help them.  Appreciate life.  That's the motto of this post.  And now you'll be a tad bit frustrated to know that I wrote this whole thing just to vent my anger.  Yes, I'm still in this bad mood.  It's odd.  It's just this underlying belligerent feeling that pops up every now and then...I could actually go on another rant about my anger issues and how they relate the the subject of this post, but I think you can figure it out yourself.

Goodbye, adieu, appreciate life

I'm in a bad mood again.  It's because my mom called me, and I had to go talk to her, because "that's what good children do", and she's the reason I was in a bad mood in the first place.  Ugh...I can't keep venting my anger in here.  It takes so much time, and I'm supposed to be studying for the AP test on Friday, which just makes me more irritated.  I wonder if this is all because of stress, because if it is, screw stress.

Goodbye.

It's kinda odd how, although I'm living in the country with one of the greatest abilities to interact with other countries, whether through the massive amount of Internet in the US, cellular devices, or transportation, I still feel somewhat disconnected with the world.  Like, I just read about the heartland-rimland model, and north america isn't included anywhere on it.  It's sort of like, oh, America is this huge superpower, but in reality, it's just this baby 200-year old country that rests across the ocean from all of its parents.  The eastern hemisphere is full of countries compared to the western hemisphere.  Europe is next to Africa, which is next to Asia, which can reach Australia.  Also, it seems as if nothing happens in the western hemisphere.  No wars, nothing much really going on except for a recession that doesn't seems to visibly affect me a lot.

...

Yeah, if you can't tell, I kinda wanna go live in the eastern hemisphere...I know I should be grateful to this country that took my family in during the Vietnam war, but still...

Huh...

"When the balance shifts too far in the category of centriPETAL forces, the survival of the state is at risk and indicates the likelihood of armed conflict."

Am I reading that right?  Or is it really supposed to say centriPETAL instead of centriFUGAL?  I'm not criticizing right now.  I'm just wondering if I'm right or not...

Ooh, I love this one.  This quote is from my "cracking the ap human geography test" book.

"Now only two insignificant cases of Soviet-style Communism remain: Cuba and North Korea."  p. 200

Well, that's a joke.  Their missiles supposedly can't reach America, but that does not mean they are insignificant.  Humph.

You know, Silvermist is the "Asian" fairy, right?  So why is she the tallest?!?!

My favorite personality is Tink's.  Also, this fairy from the books named ...well, the art fairy, and also...huh, I should just list the ones I don't like...

I like Silvermist, but she's kinda too elegant.  Same with Rosetta, except Rosetta is kinda like country accent elegant with oddly poofy hair kinda elegant...uh...I don't like how iridessa is always so...I don't know, and I don't feel like explaining...I don't like periwinkles hair...or Rosetta's...haha, Terence, you're so cute...clank and bobble!!!  Love them!!  

If you can't tell, I'm still in a bad mood.  This is what's going through my head!!  Why??  I even turned myself into a Disney fairy!  Why????

Hey, Az, do you have a problem with being a librarian/scholar fairy?  Or would you rather be something else?

Ok, now I'm cursing the Facebook app while singing aladdin's "a whole new world".

This is seriously twisted.

And this is also a no-comment post.  Hmmph.

I don't get it...why is it that, when I'm in a bad mood, I made cheesy star person animations, watch Disney movies, sing horrible karaoke, and let Disney songs play continuously through my head?

And if you want to say something like "hah" or "oh, I can't help it, I'm just laughing at you" don't.  I'll just get into a worse mood.  Then I'll make a new blogger so I can vent my frustrations in peace.  Hmmph.  Really, Az.

No more commentary is necessary.  Not even in real life.  Or I will continue my bad mood.  For a long time.

And I hate how this post seems comedic to me.  Ugh...

I can hear a song that sounds like madagascar's "I like to move it"...ugh...?

Ugh...

How about this.  Just don't comment.  Then there will be no chance for a consequence.

A study on Aleuts

Hmm...the way I see it, the Aleut people, the Aleutians? look very similar to Asians.  They have very similar eyes, and a chubby-ish face, at least in the pics I looked at.  Except, they seem to have a bigger chin, in a way you could call it, their mouth is a farther distance from the sides of their face.  So yeah, that's all...our distant, distant cousins, the Aleutians!!

The little girl is so cute!!!!

Curiosities

I've been wasting too much time on my iPad today...as you may be able to tell...

Anyways,

Why is it, that...

We eat hot foods when it's hot outside (summer), but not cold foods when it's cold (winter)?

If nature governs by "survival of the fittest", why is the vast majority of the world's population concentrated in LDCs, the countries least capable of "surviving"?

I had another...anyways, think of those things!

Maybe I'll make a new label, maybe...see the world in a new perspective!  See the world clearly!!  See a new world!!

A whole new world!!  That's part of a song...wonder what...

My iPad has a freakishly good microphone.  It can even hear me turning the earplugs in it's little socket!!  That's abnormal!!  Why??

Stereotypes and SWAG

You know, you have to wonder...if the American stereotype is kinda like, "fat person walking around eating McDonald's", and the Texan stereotypes is "cowboy riding a horse to school and wearing boots", then does that mean a Texan really is a "fat cowboy eating McDonald's while wobbling on a horse and wearing boots that his thigh fat cascades out of"?

You just have to wonder...

Also, who is the person that SWAG does not apply to?  I am using the acronym "Something We A____s Got".  For me, I could use "Americans" or "Asians".  Others could use things like "Adams" (a last name), "Airheads" (term for a aloof person you hate), "Astronauts" (a type of job), etc.  So, can you think of anyone that doesn't have SWAG?

Oh yes, what I really came on here for...I bet y'all heard something like this before...

"Maturity is the day you realize you don't have any."

WHOA.  The blogger app looks different...

Look, I can bold and italicize!!  Finally!!  

I don't know why they don't let me underline though...sigh...

And I don't know how to put a title on here...

Ooh, and I can put pics wherever, too. So, there, something I worked on this week.  I also colored it...but...yeah, I have horrible color choice!!

He has rabbit ears because it Black rAbbit from my story welcome to the circus, and...I don't think he really has rabbit ears, but it was just a representation of him...

Oh, I found how to title it...labels?

Sci-fi: an example of inspiration

Think on this quote (it's from my AP hug textbook...):

"For many people the only way to enter the United States or Canada is illegally. In the latter part of the twentieth century the tradition of universal ability or migrate to North America no longer exists. Paradoxically, in an era when human beings have invented easy means of long-distance transport, the right of free migration has been replaced by human barriers."

Now, think of it as the background for a Sci-fi story. You may even want to change the dates around. Whoa!! Total change in perspective!! Now add this next quote:

"The most famous symbol of migration in the world is surely the Statue of Liberty. Its inscription, written by Emma Lazarus, includes the famous words, 'Give me your tired, your poor, your huddled masses yearning to breath free.'...The United States no longer asks for immigration of the world's tired, poor, huddled masses yearning to be free."

....and, suddenly, it becomes an apocalyptic world in which the rich countries can no longer accept the third world countries' immigrants!! The Statue of Liberty is now a rusted (ahhh...if copper can rust) skeleton on a barnacle-encrusted island. It's no longer a symbol of hope, of freedom. It's a symbol of despair, of the closed borders to this once mighty country, ravaged by war, disease, and famine.

Whoo hoo!! A story based on Human geography!! Translation: the world has reached it's CARRYING CAPACITY, and MDCs have failed in caring for the helpless LDCs. Population, corresponding with VON THÜNEN'S MODEL, has outpaced agricultural growth. Not enough new food practices, such as INCREASING AGRICULTURAL LAND, USING MORE MACHINERY, and FINDING NEW FOOD SOURCES (I don't think I got them right--I'm not at that chapter in my reviewing yet) have been implemented, or they have failed. Because of this, countries, rich and poor alike, fight to come out at the top, where food supplies can be taken. Malnutrition, lacking conditions due to war and hunger, and the shutting down of public services (schools, hospitals, police forces) have led to not only disease, but illiteracy and huge increases in crime, as people fight for their resources. Petroleum is no longer available, for the Middle East no longer cooperates, and no one is willing to work anyways, so no automobiles are being driven. Because no one works, the level of unemployment is skyrocketing, and the citizens are missing many of their basic services. The world is doing the impossible: it's actually reversing direction and going backwards in the DEMOGRAPHIC TRANSITION MODEL (DTM), and has LATE FIRST STAGE CONDITIONS, with enormously high CRUDE DEATH RATES, and, though not quite as high, CRUDE BIRTH RATES (crime=rape, you know?). The world is a world of squalor, of pain, of hunger. This is Sparta!!

What? Huh? Hope you learned something from that human geo lesson...

And, to turn it into a fantasy!!:

In the midst of this chaotic, dying world, a group of magical teens emerge to fight the worldwide economic depression!!

To turn it cheesy: (actually, I kinda like the "save the environment" part. Gives a moral to the story. The cheesy part is the "save the world with the help of everyone!! (cuz everyone's just so nice like that...))

The teens, through their hard work at turning the world back to normal, fully realize their powers and capabilities, and vow to save the environment from this evil humankind!! They work together, and with the help of all their friends, family (that betrayed them before!!), and eventually the whole population of the world to reverse this downgrading of the world around them, and in the end, everyone is happy, and the magical teens grow up in a happy world, have children, and never use their powers again except for maybe growing a bunch of plants in a greenhouse or botanical garden.

Hmmm...what other genres are there?
Teen fiction!:

The magical teens are...teens, and they fall in love in spite of the horrible world around them!! (I don't write stuff like this, so...I don't have much more to write...)

Chick flick!!:

All of the magical teens are girls, and they fall in love with random boys around them while sashaying through the world!?

Ooh...I forgot about this part...people are struggling to get into the U.S? Hmm...integrate that into your story!!

This is not Copywrited...this is half cliche, half rant, I really don't mind if you use it. But if you do...please, make it more interesting, such as, add a twist or something...please, PLEASE do not turn it into the chick flick version. I will puke. ("hey-ah, I'm like, totally going to save the world today!! With my high heels sinking in the sewage outside, I'm going to raise my delicate little hand and release a cascade of sparkles to heal the earth!! And to those boys gazing at me in awe, I suppose I have to fall in love that ultra-cutie!! Oh, his long red hair falls over his face so seductively! And his eyes, that wonderfully clear shade of blue!! I so have to text him. Tell me his number!")

Haha, poor Lamair, I won't (will) torture you like that in the future. Such a sad life, such a sad life...

Song of depression I don't have

Think of it as a very rough, VERY rough idea for a song.  No inspiration really...or maybe, it's life's inspiration?  I always wonder about things like this--who we really are, why we're here, and what we're doing to the world.  yeah...create your own tune.  for some reason, it reminds me of Mulan's "Who is that girl I see" or whatever it's called.  "reflection"?

 

I look into the mirror
and all I find is green

(stretching) as far as I/the eye can see

green grass, green trees, green everywhere it'll be

yet/but there's no room for me
my face doesn't appear

in that land of green/fantasy

/reflecting back at me

and the space behind me
fills, gray concrete/rock
shattered windows
broken glass
weary people trudging home
and the only green I see
is growing in cracks
in the sidewalk

where did that world go?
lost between/underneath/beneath the dreary expressions
on those faces
they once knew

but no longer

tragedy,

lost beneath debris

(forgotten memories)

populate the sky
will it be
a forgotten memory?

Curls

My mom curled my hair today...neither she nor I have ever curled using a curling wand...so, now, half of my hair is wavy, and the other side is unevenly fluffy...?
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I will succeed in this mysterious thing called "beauty" one day. I don't know why, but all the art aspects of beauty muddle me...maybe it's just because I don't want to try, since I don't plan on continuing with it often (painting nails...yeah, I suck...but then, I never paint my nails, so I've never had practice)
I think it may just be me, but my hair is not very curl friendly...it's probably just cuz I've never curled it before...

Starstruck

Yeah, so I went on Netflix and clicked on a random Disney movie...and it was sweet...
Yes, I think Jessica is overbearingly grumpy, crabby, and all those other things she said and denied, and I hated that. But it was still sweet...
So now all I want to do is read sappy romances. And that's not really good...cuz I don't read sappy romances...soooo......
Huh........
It was a huge "fall in love with a star, make him realize his true self" cliche, but it was still sweet. Makes me go back to my childhood fantasies of "someday, a prince will come and carry me off to his castle".
But the thing is...I wouldn't be surprised if I diss the celebrity like Jessica...yeah, I'd get an autograph so I could be like, hey look, I met _____!!, but then I might...yeah...I don't like Justin bieber...he sags...ugh...oh, that's not the only reason I don't like him. But still, he sags...ugghh...sterling...is cute...
I forgot why, but I was looking up pics of Dylan and cole sprouse. I think...I don't know...but, there's this odd jump from "identical twins with identical hairstyles that look like 14 year olds" to "omg, suddenly one has long hair and looks like a hippie and the other has odd hair and looks...odd". Oh, I still like them (their shows, what can I say, I don't know them....though I still dislike Justin bieber), but...their hair......
Have you ever called a celebrity by just their first name? Like, instead of Justin Bieber, you say Justin? Saying sterling...sounds like you're talking about metal...? I've called them by their last name plenty of times...just wondering if anyone calls them by first name.
Ok, I think I'm out of the sappy romance phase...I'll go do something else now...

I love reading the stories/blog posts I wrote a while back (cough, cough, the beginning of this school year). I keep laughing at my stupidity and my (wicked) comedy. Yeah, haha...but I just need to write this down...need more details!! Bits of story go by too fast!! Slow down the clock!!! Detail, detail, DETAIL!!
Mm, okay.

Gadgets

Fret not, dear viewers!! All of those gadgets are by no means permanent. I'm just testing them right now...

About the restaurant

I'm trying to figure out where I can find all of my "story fragments"...
Well, anyways, this is part of WttC (welcome to the circus), and i won't write much...hopefully...

"Welcome to The Circus!! We have differently themed rooms, so that you may enjoy your food to the fullest. If eating a hearty soup, there is an arctic room, and you can relax with a cool glass of lemonade by the beach."
RingMaster and BunniTurtl were amazed. They had never thought Black rAbbit would be able to do this, blah blah, this is just me writing ideas down.

So, Black rAbbit would have been really reluctant to help with the restaurant, especially since they're forcing him to cook (or would this be later?), but when he realizes that the others are really incompetent, he takes matters into his own hands and does everything.
Ok, that's it. Bye.

I'm reading my "cracking the ap test" book, and I can't help it...I really just wanna slam my head on the table and facepalm in exasperation. You want to know what I just read? "Someone from Santa Monica, California, might say they are from Los Angeles, or simply L.A. (dude)." sigh...

And the author keeps referring to himself as "the author", and telling us random info. Like, they were talking about how some people define the south, and he's like, "the author thinks its defined by the areas where people have southern accents. He had one growing up in West Virginia..." why...

AP HuG book phrases

Oh, goody...:
"men regard it as a sign of their own virility." p. 72

"And within the United States the button fly is more common on the West Coast, whereas wasternera prefer the zipper flu because it doesn't let in cold air." p. 132  If you know what I mean....Cuz, you don't want it getting cold down there...

"But krill do not taste very good."

Wahahahahaha!! Grammar mistakes!!
"A region can be sparsely inhabited yet overpopulation if it has rapid population growth and limited resources..." p. 77

It's really freaky when you accidentally find the same person on deviantart. Any site like that, really...
I don't think anyone really wants to know this (tmi!!) but this is my own blog that I created so I could write anything I want, so...did you know, my brassiere (ooh, fancy) has been on backwards the entire day?? And I just noticed!!
Wahahahahaha!!

My top...ten

Well, I just feel like it, so now you're gonna get my top...something lists of MAL (manga, anime, light novels)!!

Manga:
1/2 prince
Magico
Samurai high school
Beauty pop
I think there was another...I used to only like shoujo, but, as you can see, only two of those listed could be called shoujo. And it's not an extreme shoujo either...it just has a bit of romance...

Manga that I like a lot:
Akagami no shirayukihime
Kyou Kara maoh (I haven't read very much of this...it's ongoing...sigh...so that why I only like it. If it was completed, I would read the whole thing, and I would probably love it)
Mishounen produce (I don't absolutely love it, but I like it a lot more than most. Very cute)
Otokonoko wa maid fuku ga Osuki?! (why? Just because.)

Anime:
Ouran high school
Little witch academia
Studio ghibli!! Specifically, Howl's moving castle
Sword art online
I like clannad, but it wasn't totally my style. I still wanna watch the rest of the anime by Key, though. They're still very good.
Yumeiro patisserie (cute!! And pics of food:D)
You should watch ame and yuki. It's very emotional.
There were more!! I know there were!! But I don't remember them!!

Light novels: (ahem, these are actually the only ones I've read:D hope y'all don't mind)
Yu Wo!! Specifically, 1/2 prince and legend of sun knight
Sword art online

Dramas, even though MAL does not include them. I've actually only watched one, but I'll also list some that I will watch...eventually
Boys over flowers

Planning to watch: (of what I remember)
Coffee prince
Princess hours

Gosh...I must've read hundreds of manga...or, well, a hundred...and maybe watched around fifty anime (including shorts)? And I don't remember half of them...they're just a blur in my mind...

That's all. Bye, sleep tight.

You know what irks me? I actually write better in cursive when I don't look at the paper. When I do look at it, it gets really cramped and slanted...sigh...

You know, I wonder if laziness is a talent, not a curse. A gift, per say...maybe I was born to be lazy, and it is an incurable quality of mine that is not meant to be disrupted. Instead, it should be allowed to grow and flower into the ultimate laziness. Yes, that would be nice...

Bandquet

Yes, bandquet. Band banquet!! Genius, right? Az came up with it.
Yeah, so, I got a dress!! I normally wouldnt talk about clothes, but...I don't really know what else to talk about, so I'll just tell you the brief history of bandquet and me.
So, I went to Ross and got a dress, but I didn't quite think that was formal enough, and i guess my mom could tell, because yesterday she went, oh, you want to go to a different Ross? And so we did, and now I have several dresses. Good for me. I would feel regretful getting so many clothes at once...but then I think of the fifteen years I've lived without ever requesting to get any clothes--my mom always had to force me. Also, all the girls who go on shopping sprees each month...ugh...yeah, so I feel no guilt right now.

If you want to put me in a really awkward situation, put me in a clothes store. To make it even more awkward, put it in a store where the customers really like trying on the clothes (aka, dresses) or a lingerie store. To make me get really frustrated, make me go with my mom. I will get very annoyed. Seriously...and that isn't really a good thing, since then I end up rejecting every item of clothing I see, just so I can leave sooner...so, that's basically what happened the first time I went to Ross. We actually went to Marshall's right after that, and yeah, I rejected everything. The second time I was fine. Except...does you mom still try to go in the changing stalls with you?? That really bugs me...ugh...dont worry, I have perfected the art of kicking my mom out. Yes.

Hmmm...so, I'll be a girl and describe the dress. It's black and red. Woohoo, school colors!! M'kay.

I had to write something else...I forgot what...
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Oh, that has gotten me started on emptying out my closet. I still have stuff in there from elementary school. Obviously, they don't fit anymore, and I would kill myself before wearing them anywhere (ooh, you're so cute, pink fluffy dresses with humongous roses!!), so I don't know why I still have them...

Yeah, I don't care if you hate me for writing such random things, but that's really the point of this blog (hence the name "random rants"), so I'm going to clean out my closet, the random things in my desk, my sketch stockpile, my iPad memory...oh, sheet music. Though I want to keep them...maybe I'll just scan everything then recycle them...

Ok, bye

Full of memories, we are,
Let us die with those in our mind.
Give us a day to cherish
To hold close, to love, to remember

Oh, I don't know...I'm trying to make it sound sentimental...ah, well...it's supposed to be sung, so come up with your own tune

I don't really know what to post...I'm (supposedly) studying for my AP HuG exam in three weeks...ummm...no more playing in band!! Yeah, knockoff period!! I made my Lamair pic in the GDI deadline, I'll try to put him up, though I kinda want to do him again, since I had such a short time before, and I wanna actually get the colors right...my brother turned 13, and I totally forgot about his birthday. I was at school, and I kept writing "4/26", and I didn't know why I had a faint recognition of those numbers. Well, I figured it out when I got home. Then we went out to eat at Jenny's restaurant!! They have some very...unusual sushi names. But it was delicious:D gosh, now I want more sushi...

A question...do bald people put lotion on their heads? Can they get dandruff?

I really got nothing else...

Will you dance with me on the moon? The stars, they light our stage. And the soft twinkling of the black-curtained darkness, slips back to reveal the show.

Crazy clarinet wielding girl

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Huh?!?!

The thing is, the clarinet isn't even drawn correctly...excluding the fact that it's split in thirds...

Beauty Pop

I also began reading beauty pop (it's a manga) again.

READ IT. You will be SEVERELY ENTERTAINED (I don't know why I use that phrase...I just...do). It's about a hairstyling genius girl who is pulled into a beauty club at her high school called "scissors project", or SP. then, it's basically the story of her adventures.

I don't think the hairstyles are particularly very good, considering that it's a hairstyling manga, but I absolutely cant complain about the main character's (koshiba kiri) hair. I don't really get why I like it...I normally hate bobs, or whatever you call her hairstyle (puffy hair, as Naru Naru calls it, haha), but if the mangaka had used any other hairstyle, it wouldn't have matched. It just...suits her. If she chose long hair, then it wouldn't be kiri (this is her first name. Just a little japanese lesson: in japan (at least, this is what I think is true...I could be wrong...), you should call a person by their last name as a sign of respect. If you get close to them, however, you may be allowed to call them by their first name. Im just using her first name cuz its not like that in europe or america, where i think most of my (very small amount) of viewers are from) anymore...

Ochiai...ehehe...he sure does love that little hand position...
I have a big collection of manga pics in which a character (guy or girl) puts their hand in the hand position indicating that you're a lesbian. Just my entertainment:D
I'll put it up someday. I've been trying to clean out my iPads memory today, and so far I have cleared my 1,500 pics to 450. I think that's a big improvement. Most of them are pics of professional manga-style pics I liked or references for my drawing.

Since I'm here, I'll put up a pic of a guy for my turandot opera parody. I haven't mentioned this yet, except for in the "what will be the ..." post. I actually had to draw him as a sketch for my GDI class, and they're only giving me A FREAKING THREE DAYS to work on it on the computer, so I had to simplify a lot. His name is Lamair, but his real name is Amour. Maybe I'll put the story summary up someday...I should edit that to make it more...concise...

Oh yeah, in this pic, it implies that he's a holy soldier of some sort. He's not anything like that; I just needed to do something to make him look not so plain...his hair is bright RED (not orange), his eyes are light, startlingly clear blue, his tunic and pants are blue with gold trim and detail, and his shirt is white. However, the stupid GDI project may make me have to change that...if so, then his hair would be the same gold as the detail on the clothes, his eyes would be silver like his sword, his tunic would be blue, and his shirt and pants would be white. In both versions, his boot are a dark gray.
Hmmph. For the GDI project, we are put into groups where we have to design something (in my case, concept character design), and our goal is to make a profit of $10,000 for the whole team. However, my teacher said something about having to buy COLORS. For goodness sakes!! Why in the world would you have to do that???!!!?! I can understand why he would make us "buy" photoshop and other programs, but why would you have to buy colors?? They come free with photoshop!! Yeah, so that's why I made all those color changes to Lamair...sigh...and yes, one side of his hair is curly (though I'm not too good at drawing that yet) and the other side is straight. As a bit of rebellion, I'm making his bangs cover one eye so I don't have to draw it. Hmmph. Also, if his head looks off to you, I'm sorry, I had to erase it, and I don't know if drew it on again right of not...

I've been doing as much as I can so I can finish the project in three days (I'm not very experienced with digital art---that's why I'm so worried), hence the simplified colors, clothes, covered eye, and shading on the sketch. I think the shading makes him look like a golem...ah, well...better now than later, when I'll be freaking out over the deadline...

Yeah, I'm gonna stop now. This is excessively long. Really...

Wreck it Ralph

So. I finally watched it yesterday.
I am...SEVERELY ENTERTAINED. Addicted...yah...
I don't have much to say, though, since I forgot pretty much everything I wanted to say...well!!

So, on Friday I watched the little mermaid. And I have a few comments corresponding to the pics coming up.
First, I found a movie mistake. It's pretty obvious, and I'm sure plenty of people, including me, have caught it before, but still. So, first, the seagull (I can never seem to remember his name...) looks through his spyglass the wrong way, and sees Ariel and flounder "far" away, surrounded by LOTS of water. But then, it zooms out, and shows that Ariel and flounder are really right next to the rock that the seagull is on. Then, it shows ariel surrounded by lots of water again. What happened to the rock?

Second was just something I thought funny. Ursula is singing and complaining that she was left with "nothing" but then gestures at her body. Me: lady, you've got plenty there. Then, ursula says she's starving. Me: hah!

Third is about the leaf sebastian uses to pull himself into Ariel's collection cave. That is one very strong, very elasticy leaf...

Fourth: what kind of idiot brings a giant stone statue onto a ship?????????

What will be the last sentences of Lamair's story:

"Ahahaha...

I hugged her memory and wept."

Hobbies

You know what one of my favorite hobbies is? I love frustrating people. Frustrating people, deceiving people, tricking people--anything that has to do with taking advantage of what I know about human minds and then twisting people's thoughts around.

Yeah, yeah, I love to read, write, and draw, and, on a less lazy day, play sports, but I LOVE playing with people's minds.

I sound like a bad person...let it not be said to be so!! Don't worry, I (usually) always tell the person I tricked what I did (so I can have the satisfaction of seeing their shocked expressions).

I'm not a bad person. I'm just deceitful...cunning...a maniac...lunatic sounds odd...wicked!!...

I taught myself a lot of weird things in elementary school. I'm really conflicted with how I spent my elementary school years...I have memories telling me that I had one sort of personality, but then I also have memories telling me that I had the complete opposite personality...

What I remember teaching myself is...jumping as high as I could but landing silently, staring for a very long time (though I never got really good at it until 8th grade...dunno why...), EXTREME poker face (that I haven't practiced for a long time, so when I try it nowadays, it always slips...I guess if I really tried, it would stay...), lying casually (I am very good at this...too good...haha, Az!! Yes, I (usually) always say what I lied about). Well, bye.

1/2 Prince

I was like, hallelujah!! Glory!! Praise the world, 1/2 prince (manga) has been updated!! And I was reading it and I was like, yeah-hah!! And then I ran out of pages...
:(
Oh well...I'll just have to wait another four months for another update...sigh...

Haha, dictator of life is a staalkerr!!

94 seconds

Yeah!! I got in the top 78% for my high score!!
This is just a collage of the things I wanted to comment on, since it's such a hassle to upload a bunch of pics on the blogger app...

Boston Marathon Bombing

I would just like to talk about the bombing on Monday.
I was actually in boston during Christmas, and I had wanted to see the boston marathon this year. It seems ironic, and you may feel like that by saying that, I'm treating this as a joke. I'm not. I feel very sorry for the people who lost their lives, were critically injured, or injured. I'm sorry for the people that had to face that, including those who have had one of their loved ones hurt.
The thing is, that's all I have to say on the subject. I live in Texas, and something happening all the way in Boston is merely a ripple on my life. The blog post before this, and the one after will not talk about this event, and they will be just like my normal posts. So I'll make another apology to everyone who may read this: I'm sorry that I cannot truly share your grief, and that I can live my life happily and carefree while yours may be hurt. I'm sorry, and I really don't think this post is in any way beneficial to you, except maybe to explain the actions of people similar to me that you may meet. If anything, this may make you feel worse, but this is my public sadness for the terrible event, and this is really all I can say.

To the other people, whether or not you have any relation to this incident, I am telling you not to lose hope in America. I read in the newspaper today a quote from the father of a person who lost their legs, saying something along the lines of "I'm beginning to really lose faith in this country."
Even if you are not American and are reading this, I would still ask you to maybe say a short prayer for the victims. For the Americans, I would like to say that America is trying its best. This one incident is one out of thousands of incidents that have been prevented. However hard it tries, nothing is perfect. No one is perfect. Our country, and the people within it, have flaws, but we are working our hardest together to overcome those flaws to make this land a better place. We the people, right? We have to stick together and not break apart because of one tragic event, or we'll never be able to handle further attacks in the future. Have you ever heard the phrase "you need to make mistakes to learn"? While you probably heard that for little, simplistic things, such as messing up on math homework or forgetting your keys somewhere, it also applies to this. We will use this event to improve ourselves, maybe by tightening security, maybe by raising awareness.

Don't lose faith in your country, and try the best to overcome this obstacle and set our country on a path to recovery.

Happy birthday, mother dear

(though you won't read this anyways...)
We went to rosa's cafe for my moms birthday, and the girl at the ordering thingie magigy...cashier? In a way...well, the person that takes your orders at that machine thing. Oh yeah, she gave us free cake, and told us not to tell anyone.

It's also my cousin's birthday. Really odd...he's my mom's sister's son. How often do you get the same birthday in a family?
But then again, in my family, we have a whole week in December dedicated to birthdays. It goes: 4-my oldest brother 5-me 6-my aunt? 7-my dad 11-my uncle? And then a lot of my friends have December bdays...

Sorry, nothing much is going on with my life right now, so I don't have anything really interesting to post (but then again, I posted plenty last week...more than plenty...I think I've taken "random rants" a bit too literally...

Well, I dissected an earthworm last week, and on Friday went to Dallas to be part of a contest at the meyerson. It was really sad...the day before, my band teacher emailed everyone saying that the contest would take place earlier, because the Dallas symphony orchestra needed to use the meyerson later. But then, at the contest, one band actually arrived an hour late!! And so everyone was pushed back!! And then, (one of the guides even said "money speaks. The people with the money are more important") my band (we went last, if you care to stalk me) wasn't even allowed to play all of our songs!! We only got to play two out of three. Also, there were supposed to be four bands from a school in Houston performing before us, but three of the bands got kicked out and only the top band was allowed to perform two of their three songs. They came all the way from Houston!! Huff...

Well, I got Jenny addicted to free cell...sigh...

Oh, and I have another pile on my desk. And several inside it. And some in my closet...by my door...on the dining room table...
It seems I have a lot of piles of paper...

I was thinking that I was missing some stuff, but then I found the last pile...add another inch...sigh...
Turns out, about three inches of the papers are actually drawings...
.______.
I am ashamed of myself...all that paper, wasted...

I was organizing the huge stack of papers by my desk (seriously, it's huge. It's got to be about half a foot tall), and I came across my "things I've been hit with in my Spanish class" list from the beginning of the year. I realized that the reason I had forgotten about it was that everyone but one guy who sits on the the other side of the room now that hit me with random flying objects has moved to a different class, or been sent to a delinquent school. One guy in my English class got in ISS at that school. That's really sad...how does that happen?? How bad do you have to be??

Drawings...

Im drawing my little baby cousin, and at first I drew the eyes too much to the right...then, to fix that, I just moved the left eye a little bit to the left, but then the eyes were too far apart!! And then I forced myself to erase both of them...
Wahhhh!! This is so painful to my lazy self!

Kelly Eddington

This person is amazing!!
She works in watercolor, but the thing is, she does it in a completely different style than most! Like other artists, she takes advantage of the "clear" quality of watercolor, but instead of making the painting really loose looking, she makes it really detailed, and makes it seem all clear and light!! And, it's also amazing about the level of detail she puts in, since well, it's "water" color. It tends to not stay in the place you put it...
Visit her site at kellyeddington.com

This is Spartan Dentistry!

Ahahaha:D this is by orenji-kun.deviantart.com
The exact website: http://orenji-kun.deviantart.com/art/THIS-IS-SPARTAN-DENTISTRY-153072447?q=gallery%3Aorenji-kun%2F2743642&qo=11

I don't know why, but I feel extremely annoyed right now...maybe it's because my cousin came over, but I didn't think I would get that annoyed at him...ugh...

Im currently watching life of pi, or, as my friend calls it, life of cgi. It's interesting, but I'm wondering when it'll actually get somewhere...

The life of Pi

Oh gosh...a million jellyfish around him, and what Pi does is stick his hand in the midst of them!! And then a giant whale comes and eats the jellyfish!! And everything is glowing blue!! And now fish are flying over the boat!! Oh. My. God. Fish attack!! Wow...gosh, be satisfied with the little fishies. They just have to be greedy and take the one big fish. And how are you gonna eat that? I say...ew...

I don't quite see why the tiger is afraid of Pi. Pi really hasn't done anything to him...oh wait, now he's giving him some fish...it's bribery, I tell you, bribery!!

If anything, Pi can try sun cooking the fish. He can use his metal bucket as a surface and cut the fish into little strips. Maybe make fish jerky?

I think I've gotten too used to watching movies with you, Az...I can't stop commenting on everything...

Gosh, luxury raft...Ahaha, he did make fish jerky!! But he hung it up instead...and used his bucket as a drum...
.______________. No reason...

Whoa!! I know you're insane and all, and you did "tame" the tiger, but don't sleep on the same boat as him!!

Heh??? Hey, that animal isn't supposed to be that close to the surface!! Richard Parker shouldn't e able to see that deep, right? Oh, it's Pi again...

Your pencil's gone. Good for you. And now you lost it in the storm!!

Wha...

Dude, you're in the middle of a storm that could probably kill you, and you're screaming, it's beautiful!!

His hair is scary now..
Tiger, you're okay!! But the raft was lost...hah...congrats...

Please, I'm fine with not seeing under your arm. Keep your arms to your sides.

Oh great, go ahead and cuddle up with the tiger.

Live, Richard, live!!

Yes, always secure the boat before you leave. Smart boy.

Idiot!! Don't eat random things in the ground!! It's bright purple!! How is that safe?!?!
Omg...prairie dog looking things...millions of them...running away!! Hey, let them stay, they're cute...

Why does all the water glow in this movie??

Omg, the island looks like a sleeping person...even the food glows!!

Oh, they're meerkats...and you keep them to eat them!!

You know, even if you're Indian and are hard to sunburn, shouldn't you be baking right now with a ton of rashes from the salt water?

My favorite line in the movie "but bananas don't float."

I don't understand what he's saying...

The end...

So far this school year, I have "forgotten" to brush my teeth. More like, it'll be 10pm or sometime like that because I practiced my clarinet before brushing and forgot to brush right after, and then dilly dallied until 10. And then, I wouldn't wanna randomly start brushing. It's not too bad, since I brush again in the morning before school anyways...
Yesterday was one of those days...I should probably brush now...
TMI, haha...

My favorite Spanish word: ¡¿Qué?!
My favorite reply: ¡¡Porque!!

1/2 Prince...

...Pokemon style!!
Just saying, I didn't draw this. I found it on prince revolution, credits to whoever drew it...they have a deviantart page, I think. Just don't know which one...

Asian Mafia!!

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Life isn't life without the ups and downs.
This is supposed to be cheering...but then i read it again...and realized its just like my philosophy...
.____.

Public Forgiveness

Well...this would have been really weird to put with my previous comment...so...yah...

Azalea, please, please do not feel bad. It was an honest mistake, and none of us feel any resentment towards you. If anything, being sad would make me sad too (haha, so cheesy, but true), and then we'd just be this depressed pair sad because of one little mistake that has already passed and is now forgiven again.
So, smile, be happy, and do not worry, you are forgiven! Don't feel so miserable!!

Ehehe...

Wahahahaha!!! 69!!!!!

Philosophy 2

"Success is a matter of belief. Don't believe in the people you don't want to succeed, and they won't."

Ahem...

I just now realized that, in the lone dango, I named nami's sister yuri.
._______.
I had no intention to use the most common meaning for the name...
Ok, now that I know, she is now renamed to Yuni. It has no meaning, I just made it up.

The Lone Dango

This is from a while ago. It isn't finished, nor do I think I will ever finish it

Story Fragment

What?? Why am I (trying to) write a romantic segment? Cuz I wanted to write the last bit about the flowers, and I needed an intro. So...
Oh yeah, the setting is a color guard competition, in front of the gym where they actually compete and the judging takes place. Hehe...
There are two girls, "--" and "---". Just so you know...

She reached up and caressed Kieran's cheek softly, her other hand slowly turning him so that his back was facing ---. She raised herself up higher on her heels, and brought her face close to his. He leaned forward too, as she beckoned, and she whispered, close to his lips. As soon as she finished, she looked out from behind Kieran's broad shoulders and flashed a triumphant grin at ---.

From ---'s point of view, -- had just kissed Kieran. Blah blah blah blah, thoughts of betrayal, blah blah blah.

She dashed out of the school, the door slamming shut behind her. Finding her secluded corner, she quickly snapped the last dandelion's stem and began plucking it's petals off hurriedly. "He loves me. He loves me not. He loves me. He loves me not!" By this point, she was hysterical, the petals flying off the flower and twirling in a whirl storm around her, as fast as she thought the words. Maybe even faster.

Six petals were left. "He loves me. He loves me not." She kept going out of habit, although she already knew what the outcome would be. Her heart had been broken too many times to not know. "He loves me..."

Meanwhile, Kieran spun around when the sound of the door slamming echoed through the busy school. He looked past the colorful costumes and glittering flags to see --- through the glass windows. He began to push through the crowd, but a small tug on his sleeve held him back. -- stood behind him, staring deep into his eyes. What she saw was the opposite of what she hoped, and she lowered her face sadly and released her grip.

"Go after her..." she spoke the words grimly, and her smile was forced when she looked back up at him. When he didn't move immediately, her careful control vanished. "Go after her!" she screamed, her hair flying in all directions as she wrung it with her hands. -- pushed Kieran away, towards the door, towards ---.

He didn't say anything, but she could see the silent thanks in his eyes when he looked back at her. [The kindest look he has ever given me...] she thought sadly.

Racing towards the door, Kieran passed the flower shop from before. He hesitated, then grabbed a bouquet, shouting that he would pay later. By the time he reached the corner, --- was on her last petal.

"He loves me n---!" --- was startled when a bouquet of fragrant flowers were thrust into her face. Looking up, she saw a blushing Kieran, as red as the roses in his hands.

He spoke, the blush causing him to turn and hide his face behind the flowers. His message was short and simple from embarrassment. "Keep trying with these until you get the right phrase." (yeah, yeah, I really need to change this. So lame...)

--- gaped at him, and then the tears began running down her face. "Yes, yes, I will, I will!!" she flung herself onto him, crushing the flowers between them.

Kieran held the flowers out of danger, and patted her head awkwardly, but smiling all the same. "Silly, I didn't ask you anything..."